Wanting to do something productive, but knowing that I'm not going to.

Hey. I'm here. At school. Wondering if I ought to go outside, but thinking about everything that I would have to pack up and lug around, just to go outside to be blinded by the sun and sit on prickly grass. By myself. With a book. And not a schoolbook, oh no, much worse.

A Meg Cabot book.

So, I think I'm going to stay here, in the cold-ish quiet room, where I can look out at the not-so-happy people outside and imagine being out there... where it probably isn't much warmer anyway. I wish they had lockers, or something here in which to put my stuff. It's really quite cumbersom to have to carry 2 bags around all day from class to class - I don't know how other people do it. I see them walking around with maybe one bag, and a few books, and that's it! Then comes me, with my pink and black flowery backpack, and my Mickey Mouse tote. (ooh - that reminds me. I need to wash the tote when I get home tonight.) But in those bags I have schoolbooks, notebooks, my laptop, and food. The one I wish I could get rid of most is my food. I wish it wasn't nessessary to eat sometime in the 11 hours that I'm here today, because that would really lighten up my load. However, not only do I have to eat, I kind of have to eat two meals. That doesn't happen - I just pack a snacky lunch and nibble on and off between the hours of 1-6:30; but you understand my delimma.

I can't figure out a way to lighten the load either. Since I'm here for such a darn long ime, I have to bring things with which to occupy myself. That means that my computer and textbooks are always with me. And then we have days like today where I'm sooo completely bored that I bring along non-school books.... I think my tote weighs about 20 pounds by itself. And I KNOW my backpack weighs more than that. Thank you lunchbox.

On the bright side, I'm one of the few people in class who are actually prepared. On the downside it leaves me complaining on this blog. Oh well.

Maybe I'll go outside tomorrow.

~thesingingprincess