So I'm here at Sarah's house. She's singing along to Rent - I don't know it well enough to sing along to anything other than Seasons Of Love. Which is sad. I'm not sure how I can call myself a musical theatre junkie since I can't do that..... oh sigh. Oh well. Apparently I'm going to see it soon, so I have that to look forward to.
These past two weeks have flown by so fast. The week with Arin was fun, but at the same time a little bittersweet. We're both growing up. And I can see that most when I'm with her, probably because I've been visiting her house since I was really little. I can see the change between 11 year old Sarah and Arin, and 18 year old Sarah and Arin, and it saddens me. We've grown apart in a lot of ways. I'm wondering if we never were that similar, we just thought we were during those insecure middle and high-school years. Now I can see huge differences. She wants to be rebel against most forms of authority. I like authority. In fact, sometimes I crave authority. There was one point during my visit where Mrs. Warren was trying to get us to eat supper... nothing too drastic that I could tell, but Arin got so upset and told her mom that she'd eat when she wanted. It's just dinner for goodness sake!
I'm grateful for the relationship that I have with my parents. I appreciate their authority. They don't give me too much of it (in my opinion, although that opinion might be changed when I get home) and I respect them enough to take what I think isn't necessary. I think it's a pretty good system. I avoid argument, and manage to stay on their good side most of the time. I think they get mad at me more than I get mad at them. Well. Mad isn't even the right word. I think they get frustrated with me. I get frustrated every once in a while, but I would never argue back the Arin does with her parents. What's the point? Frankly, I don't care that I'm now 18, and a legal adult. They're still my parents, and I'm still living in their house. I see no point in arguing about something when I know what the answer will be.
There's much more to this post - the fact that Arin is so against authority that she's now mad at me for being a 'mom' - but it's exhausting. It's been stressing me out for the past week, and I just can't take it anymore. I appreciate authority. She does not. End of story.
Maybe next time I'll actually post about my visit. :P