Why do I keep having no-good-very-bad days?

I don't understand it.

I thought this was when life started getting better. It's February, which is supposed to be the turning point. I'm supposed to be saying "look, only one more month until Spring officially starts, I can make it!" and put a huge smile on, and have fun at school, and be all happy since my boyfriend's coming at the end of the month, and I have that to which I can look forward.... right?!!

But no. Ever since I've come home, I've had nothing but complaints for school and what's going on around me. Even I'm starting to get tired of my complaints. I don't want to have headaches, or for my leg to hurt, simply because when people ask "how are you feeling?" (which seems to happen a lot with me for some reason) I don't want to have to say anything other than "good".

I don't like not liking school. I'm suck here, that's a fact, so you'd THINK that I would learn to enjoy it, right? You would, in fact, be thinking wrong. I don't like being surrounded by people my age all day long. I try to make up for that by spending most of my time in the quiet room, but there are still plenty of people in here, they just don't talk. I also just plain don't like the school environment. A bunch of people my age, half of whom smoke, 90%  of whom use awful language (and by this, I mean anything from bad grammar to four letter words) and most of whom probably don't even know who Cary Grant IS?!!! Plus the teachers, snobby facility workers, and the occasional homeschooled middle schooler... actually. My best moment that I had today was when I was talking to a 7th grade boy about homeschooling.

I can't wait until I'm out of here. The fact that I know I can graduate in a year is seriously the ONLY think keeping me going right now. If I didn't know that for a fact, I really can't tell you what I would be doing right now, but I'm determined to get this degree, only because then I can leave.

I'd much rather have a headache over something real, like a child's over-medicated ADHD disorder, or how I'm going to manage to fix my heating and buy groceries in the same week. Not over whether or not my dance teacher likes the approach I'm taking with my essays every week, or looking through a textbook in IT to attempt to figure out why I need to know the reason a computer monitor is both an input and output source. Both of those are good to know, but they're really not worth having all-day headaches over.