Tears = Stress

"Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it." Albert Smith


Tears are something I've been dealing with a lot in the past few weeks or so. It's become a normal part of my routine - wake up with tears dried on my face from a bad dream, eat, go to school, cry sometime during the day because of class, or something I didn't/did do, or just because I can't hold them in anymore. Rehearsal, cry. Home, homework, cry, say goodnight, cry myself to sleep. 


 It does come in spurts - some days I'll only cry once or twice. Other days it's once an hour. But I don't like how they've become so frequent, and I'm still surprised by how fast they come on. More than once I've had to run out of dance class, for absolutely no reason other than tears started welling up in my eyes, and I couldn't control it. It's very frustrating. 


 Everything I've read about this, claims that it's from stress. No, duh? Every single week, I go in to see my chiropractor, and he exclaims with surprise (yet again) that my neck is tight, and asks why. Every. Week. Yes, I'm stressed. I'm taking 5 classes, opening for a play for which no-one is prepared in 5 days, trying to remain sane around my family and friends, keeping up a long distance relationship.... several in fact, counting friends, attempting to figure out religious problems I've been having. I'm also trying very very hard to make up a 2-5year life plan for myself. So yes. I'm a little stressed. 


 I don't know what the point of this entry is. To re-assure myself that it's ok to be this way? To think it's normal? Is it normal? I don't know. All I know is, I really hate crying.