If you're reading this, chances are that I miss you. I've been missing a lot of people lately. I don't know what it is - maybe it was having Aaron down here for a week? Usually when I see my people, it's up where they are in PA or CT. Having him down was something totally different. He was in *my* space, something that hasn't happened since... I don't know. A very very long time.
I opened a box tonight. It's a box that I've been keeping select things in ever since I moved. it has letters from people (mostly Spencer and Arin) and little things that I slipped in over the past 3 years. It's hard to believe it's been three whole years. I hadn't opened the box before, I would just put something in it, and then put it back in the closet. I decided that I needed to look at it today, out of boredom or loneliness or missing-ness... I don't know. I opened it, and the first thing that I noticed was a little rubber duck in a graduation cap from Spencer's graduation last June, and a receipt for and Arizona Green Tea and an Arnold Palmer from last august, when Aaron and I went to Stop and Shop when we were practically dehydrated. It's amazing how many memories this brings back. I have cards from Arin and Spencer, ticket stubs, and a few programs. Also - a card from when I did Annie. On the front it has lines from the play, and inside it says "Sarah, your voice is so pretty! I want to be like you when I grow up! Love, Grace."
I miss my 'family' up north. I get rather jealous of Spencer who is going to college 45 minutes away from his home. He can go home on the weekends and watch the productions his friends are in, and he has a (fairly) healthy mix of college friends and old friends. I don't like that so much of my life is cyber-linked, but I can't help it. I don't want to lose the good friends I do have, and to do so I have to keep things up-to-date online. When Aaron was here, I spent hardly any time on the computer, which I loved. However, after he left, I returned to my internet crutch, and and now on constantly, 24/7.
Soooo yeah. I miss peoples. I want to be able to be there for people when they're in shows, or take my friends out for ice cream after a test gone bad. For now I have to make do with a smiley face or a 'missing you!' on a status update.
I can't wait to move back home.
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Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Who am I?
This is a bit of a response to my friend Sarah's post. She talked about the type/kind of person she is, and I thought that might be a good subject for me to dwell on for a bit. I've been thinking a lot about that in the past couple months. Especially when I found out that there were a few people *cough* person *cough* who informed people around me that I had a few traits that I didn't realize about myself.
I like to think about myself as an open person. I will admit that I'm a bit judging in certain areas - for instance, if I'm in a classroom, I gravitate toward the type pf people who are paying attention and listening to the lecture, rather than those who are clowning around and making a ruckus in the back of the room. I like things to be straightforward and clear. I like taking direction, but if I am forced to, I can give it as well. I don't like arguing and will do almost anything to get out of it - including admitting to something being my fault, even if I truly believe it isn't.
I took the MyType quiz on facebook, and found out that I am a Nurturer. No big surprise there - in my circle of friends, I'm usually the 'mother' type, making sure that people have enough food, have put their dishes in the sink, and are thinking their decisions thought before executing them. I'm introverted - also not a surprise. HOWEVER - I took this quiz last fall, and according to this, my introverted-ness has gone down by 20%, so that's probably a good thing. It's still pretty high up there though.
I'm a Sensor. "People who are clearly Sensors are down to earth and sensible. They trust facts and experience over ideas and imagination, and have a knack for noticing and remembering details. They focus on the present and living life as it is, holding tradition in high regard." I think that this one is also true, which is a bit surprising. Anyone who knows me, knows my love for fantasy, and fairy tales and anything Disney. I would say though, that those are part of my regard for tradition - there is a reason the story of Cinderella has been told in thousands of languages for hundreds of years. Through fantasy, people and connect and relate to reality.
I'm a Feeler. "People who are clearly Feelers are very supportive and appreciative of others, making those around them feel comfortable and welcome at all times. They prefer to avoid conflict and instead focus on the positive. They are very people-oriented and can quickly read a person's emotional state before a word is exchanged." This goes along with being a Nurturer. I like to make sure that people are comfortable at all times, and I will go to lengths to make sure that. The downside to this, is when people talk to me and I read into their emotions instead of their words. This TOTALLY works with females.... not so much with males.
I'm also a Judger. "Judgers like to keep track of things so that they're not caught off-guard or unprepared, and for the same reason tend not to leave a decision up in the air or an issue unresolved. While they appreciate flexibility, even a little spontaneity, they're most comfortable when they're in control." Note - this does NOT say that I judge people. Being a judger means that I don't appreciate doing "whatever, whenever". It means that I like to keep track of dates, and turn in assignments on time, and I don't like people being flakes. It means that I like to know what's going on. All of this I completely agree with. Nowhere on this personality test does it say that I take one look at a person, and decide that I don't like them because of the way they look and talk. Now, sometimes that has something do with why I don't like a person, but it's never the whole reason.
I just wanted to clear that up.
I think I finally like the person I am becoming. I didn't like the person I was for such a long time - from 14 to 18, I was constantly telling myself not to become what I saw myself being in the future. I saw myself as a cynical, lonely introvert, who would be living with her cats for the rest of her life. I think I've finally broken myself out of that mold. I see myself now as a strong, independent, careful, and kind young woman. I've made some mistakes in life, and I'm fairly sure that I'll be making some more along the road - but I've learned from all the mistakes I've made, and I have very few regrets about my life so far. And that makes me happy. I don't care that I'm insignificant to the world at large. I've never wanted to be famous, and I probably won't ever be. And I'm ok with that. I have my set of friends. I love my family, and my boyfriend and my kitty. And if this is the 'greatest' I ever am as a person (although I would like to aim for a bit more) I'm totally ok with that.
I like to think about myself as an open person. I will admit that I'm a bit judging in certain areas - for instance, if I'm in a classroom, I gravitate toward the type pf people who are paying attention and listening to the lecture, rather than those who are clowning around and making a ruckus in the back of the room. I like things to be straightforward and clear. I like taking direction, but if I am forced to, I can give it as well. I don't like arguing and will do almost anything to get out of it - including admitting to something being my fault, even if I truly believe it isn't.
I took the MyType quiz on facebook, and found out that I am a Nurturer. No big surprise there - in my circle of friends, I'm usually the 'mother' type, making sure that people have enough food, have put their dishes in the sink, and are thinking their decisions thought before executing them. I'm introverted - also not a surprise. HOWEVER - I took this quiz last fall, and according to this, my introverted-ness has gone down by 20%, so that's probably a good thing. It's still pretty high up there though.
I'm a Sensor. "People who are clearly Sensors are down to earth and sensible. They trust facts and experience over ideas and imagination, and have a knack for noticing and remembering details. They focus on the present and living life as it is, holding tradition in high regard." I think that this one is also true, which is a bit surprising. Anyone who knows me, knows my love for fantasy, and fairy tales and anything Disney. I would say though, that those are part of my regard for tradition - there is a reason the story of Cinderella has been told in thousands of languages for hundreds of years. Through fantasy, people and connect and relate to reality.
I'm a Feeler. "People who are clearly Feelers are very supportive and appreciative of others, making those around them feel comfortable and welcome at all times. They prefer to avoid conflict and instead focus on the positive. They are very people-oriented and can quickly read a person's emotional state before a word is exchanged." This goes along with being a Nurturer. I like to make sure that people are comfortable at all times, and I will go to lengths to make sure that. The downside to this, is when people talk to me and I read into their emotions instead of their words. This TOTALLY works with females.... not so much with males.
I'm also a Judger. "Judgers like to keep track of things so that they're not caught off-guard or unprepared, and for the same reason tend not to leave a decision up in the air or an issue unresolved. While they appreciate flexibility, even a little spontaneity, they're most comfortable when they're in control." Note - this does NOT say that I judge people. Being a judger means that I don't appreciate doing "whatever, whenever". It means that I like to keep track of dates, and turn in assignments on time, and I don't like people being flakes. It means that I like to know what's going on. All of this I completely agree with. Nowhere on this personality test does it say that I take one look at a person, and decide that I don't like them because of the way they look and talk. Now, sometimes that has something do with why I don't like a person, but it's never the whole reason.
I just wanted to clear that up.
I think I finally like the person I am becoming. I didn't like the person I was for such a long time - from 14 to 18, I was constantly telling myself not to become what I saw myself being in the future. I saw myself as a cynical, lonely introvert, who would be living with her cats for the rest of her life. I think I've finally broken myself out of that mold. I see myself now as a strong, independent, careful, and kind young woman. I've made some mistakes in life, and I'm fairly sure that I'll be making some more along the road - but I've learned from all the mistakes I've made, and I have very few regrets about my life so far. And that makes me happy. I don't care that I'm insignificant to the world at large. I've never wanted to be famous, and I probably won't ever be. And I'm ok with that. I have my set of friends. I love my family, and my boyfriend and my kitty. And if this is the 'greatest' I ever am as a person (although I would like to aim for a bit more) I'm totally ok with that.
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